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Revisiting after recovering from depression :p

the fallen down song hits hard. like if played undertale its a game that makes you happy sad and all the fellings in the world just by playing a game btw ´this relly help

Its 3 in the morning.. Why can't I fall asleep? I just want to kill myself

Its funny how strangers on internet can comfort me better than people I know irl

guys i really need someone to talk to but nobody listens so can someone please listen😕

Room: I'll close the door so people won't see you crying Mirror: don't worry I know your true self Shower: I won't Make fun of your voice Pillows: It's okay I'll be here when you cry Teddys: I don't care if you hate me you can hug me when you're sad Light: I'll make it dark so you can sleep TV: I hope I calm you down while watching videos Mind: I'm great at keeping secrets Songs: I'll distract you while You thinking something that makes you sad Blanket: Hug me if you're sad Food: Eat! Eat! Stop starving yourself Fan: I hope you'll be okay I am here always so you won't feel hot AND THEN PEOPLE SAYS< NO ONE CARES ABOUT US~

Bro I just want to join boxing , buy some t-shirts some clothes My dad is broke mom broke Fuck it all man I just sit in the house waiting for my death

it's currently 7:17 am. i put this playlist on loop at ~2:30-ish. i haven't slept. don't you love it?

I seriously wanna leave house i hate everyone

I hate to see my deadbeat of a step father break me down but that doesn’t matter to me, I know that im a better man than him and I don’t really care. What affects me is my brother is trying to protect me. That he should not have to, from my step father and mother who are in this delusion that we are ready for the world; We are children. We should be enjoying ourselves, having fun with our friends, but no. Apparently we have to get jobs at 12 and 14 or else we’ll turn out to be failures. It’s not fair. All I want to do is to hang out with my brothers, friends, and especially me girlfriend. That’s all I want.

I know how to love but I don't know what love feels like I just want to be happy again but that might never happen

a couple months ago- my best friend died. still reminisce on the experiences i had with him, and it just makes me think of how horribly it ended, and i feel like both him and i did unforgivable things to eachother. his death made me scared to reach out and make new friends- anyone like him? flashbacks and STRONG panic. it sucks, and the literal last thing i said to him was “i don’t think i can ever forgive you.” and he left before i could even say that i’d like to try. i feel as if i didn’t do enough and should’ve tried harder. didn’t go to the funeral and just felt like absolute shit after. and i did absolutely nothing about it. bye kane. fuck me.

I genuinely hate my life. The person I love doesn’t reciprocate those feelings, I’m growing up too fast, it’s just…it’s just hard man.

As a sad person, I just wish my parents would know that I’m trying my best and I don’t want them yelling at me just bc I can’t remember anything.

🖤

the fact that the depression and suicidal thoughs just turned into a daily routine is a tad funny :)

I just love reading the comments seeing that im not alone . Also i dont mean this in a bad way . It feels soo lonely. And dark

fun fact about me! I was never shown any love really so whenever someone hugs me or tells me how much they care about me i break down. So im sobbing in my room reading some of these comments

Just a question.Why am I not enough?

Read this if sad, i love you i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. From the stranger on the internet who loves you ❤‍🩹

everybody tells me I'm not good enough and getting threatened to kill myself, because I'm ugly, not fitting in, always 'dramatic', cringe and not able to fit in. but I'm not giving up that fast, there are still people who cares about me and that is the people I've met online.

Hey bro, I know you may not know me from irl but I want to thank you so much for caring for all the people who are watching this, Whoever is seeing this, I care about you, You may feel uncomfortable sharing but that’s alright! I’m here whenever You need me! Unless I go mentally unstable, but that won’t be possible, right..? But anyways People care about you, Even strangers, but some don’t, But ignore those people, some people can’t bare to see you SH/Be Insecure/Insult yourself/Hurting yourself, So sorry if any of your family members are dead, Don’t be sad they’re gone, be happy because they cared about you! Thank you for reading!

Can't believe I actually thought he loved me.

I legitimately just spent thirty minutes venting to this playlist, thank you for this,i feel a lot better now

I know this is not the time but.... let Jesus take your pain

18:43 DO MI TI WHY NOT ME 💔💔

I really needed to vent, here is a short vent (disclaimer, I am okay I moved but I still don't trust the fact she will do anything to do it again.) there was this girl in my class who would follow me everywhere and declare me as her friend when I was not and I told her multiple times she made me feel uncomfortable polite and trying to be understanding with her but she just took advantage of that and she'd spread rumors about me and my friends and try to get personal information I was not comfortable discussing out of me. And I told MULTIPLE teachers and adults and they did nothing my parents even spoke up for me, the teachers and staff did nothing. She'd keep stalking me and trying to get me to be her friend and share information I was again, not comfortable sharing and kept following me and my friends. And she did everything in her power to be near me, in every class I was in she was there, it made me scared. I snapped at her only making the situation worse for me. She used croc-tears to cover up her doing and it worked..I only became more anger driven and got multiple detentions over her. She even showed up at the prom and followed me EVERYWHERE in there. And even after I have moved I still have nightmares of her and break down every time I vent to myself about it, I have no doubt she knows where I am now but i'm scared and feel if she did this again i'd give up and just be a puppet to be controlled, manipulated..And on the inside depressed to the point of suicidal thoughts..I dont know what to do please help :( (I was shaking the entire time I wrote this so don't mind my grammar)

im just here sitting in bed at 11:37 at night doubting my life i wish i could be better, smarter, prettier, care-free. but i guess i cant be a kid anymore.... i wish i could have a bunch of energy and be carefree again. not worrying about spider webs in my face when im in the woods... i miss being a kid. still here? thank you. you are the best. i hope you are okay. what books do you like? please tell me. hugs and kisses sent from a stranger on the internet <3 <3 <3

I'm Tired.

I always play this before I go to sleep

Dude, i hate my life. honestly i wake up in the morning feeling depressed because i know everyone hates me but no one admits it. Everyday im just trying to make other people happy because at this point because i know im not able to make myself happy at any time. Yet, people still hate me. I just wish every morning and night that i dont wake up. I cant even cry no more bro the tears just wont come out. I fuckin hate my life, im fat, ugly, useless, and overall make everything worse. I have to continue living because im too much if a bitch to do anything to myself. I cant cut myself, and i dont wanna die slowly, i want to die fast. I cant even help my friends when they are sad, and then i have to watch them hurt themselves and cry, while i just sit there thinking about what ive done. But yeah, im fine.

even though im not sad. i still cried

My mom walked into my room while i was crying and she asked if i was okay after my Dad was yelling at me for almost a hour and then she asked me if i wanted to hangout with her and said "I'm worried about you kiddo" then i almost smiled finding out that someone actually cared about me <3

i try my best im rlly trying my best but isn't enough and even if a try i cant do enything correct or good..sometimes i think '' if i die they will be more happy'' or '' if i didnt born they probly will be better now''...

hi i play this in my discord server a lot so thx for making this bc the people who listen to it love it when i play it

my friends don't want to go out with me anymore, I don't understand why, maybe it's because I'm slightly fat, maybe I'm not nice... I don't know 🙁

just saying.. im proud of you your gorgeous to me ,, to so many people it will be okay i promise

It's been a rough year for me.. My anxiety, my relationship ended a month ago, and now I'm depressed.. I'm starting to think there is no way out of my life 😢

This made me more sad, realizing nobody cared for me. Nobody will, and nobody can. I hate myself, I hate my appearance, my body, my life. I wished I die, I tried to, I will. But I always failed, I care for them, I care for everyone. Yet I've been stabbed in the heart so many times. Lost a lot of friends, lost everything, lost everything I love, lost my childhood, lost my Innocence. I don't know why... Sometimes I just want to get a knife, and stab myself... But I can't, I'm scared. I'm scared that everyone just judges me, I have social anxiety, and it's hard for me to talk to others. I feel like they're just gonna judge me all over again. I've experienced many traumas, but I don't tell anyone my trauma, my childhood was ruined, everything was ruined. My past is better than my present, I hope my future will be ok. Unlike my present, actually my past is bad too. The fact that I didn't feel like someone cared for me, comfort me, or even be kind. It's hard to smile, when I feel like they're staring and judging me. I hate my smile, I hate it. I wish I die... Please help me, I'm not ok... Please, I need help, I need someone to comfort me, I need someone to be there for me, I need someone to feel bad for me, I need someone who is kind and caring. I don't want my life anymore, please... Help me

I remember my friend who died, she lived in Turkey, I never heard from him again after the February 6 disaster. she never contacted me again..

Help me let go of love and life.!!! Please.!

I’m glad you’re asleep rn bc I just can’t. Idk why, and since your phone doesn’t have snap notifs you won’t see this til the afternoon at least haha, well anyways uhh I finally cut all contact with my ex completely which like sucked bc I spent two years in that trying so hard to make it work and it’s not fair to make you read this but it’s really hard to talk to anyone else about it. You sleeping on call with me made me so happy for no reason, your actually the reason I’m finally over her, ik we met 7 days ago now but I really like you, I don’t think it’s love yet but who knows. I really just like spending time with you. And I want you to know that doesn’t mean I don’t want your input if you need a break from me I promise that you can. I just I don’t have anyone really to talk about, and this is where being bi sucks ass bc I have guy friends that I can’t talk to bc they make me feel like a pussy, and if I talk to too many girls than my partner thinks I’m cheating which sucks. Idk I have a concert Tmro I’m probably just excited for that but either way I’m still awake and I’m going to the gym at 730 am and I can’t get any sleep like this. Idk I’m in my people break phase too but I’m so lonely, like you have all these people you could talk to, I’m not that close with anybody in my family, my best friends make me the butt of all the jokes, idk I just I feel so out of place wherever I am, don’t get me wrong your friends are great I think everyone in your server is super nice and stuff, I just feel weird anywhere. Almost like I’m putting on a different face for everyone I meet. And I miss the real me but after 2 years in a super toxic relationship I have no idea who the real me is anymore. I put so many different acts on for so many different people I’m lost in my head. And I sit here writing this to someone who I met on a video game, who I really have a crush on and idk if I’m gonna lose her to and I’m just scared. I’m scared I’m gonna snap again. I’m scared I’m never gonna find the real me again. I’m scared that i want to take my own life again. I’m scared, even if you tell me your there for me, my own brain isn’t, it’s me versus myself and idk who’s winning anymore and I don’t really have any coping skills so I have no idea how to help myself. If you got this far thanks, thanks for reading all of this, you don’t need to say anything, I just I need a hug Chrissy and it’s kind of sad I’m asking someone I met online that lives 6 1/2 hours away but idk who else to talk to anymore. -with love Kyle

I just wanna say that everyone here is loved and you'll get through anything you're going through right now wether it be a break up a loved one passing on or something else you'll get through it i promise

What is the picture a anime or somthing someone tell me pls.

You were tired of this song is called space song

I hate when you don't seek out the help you need cause you feel like you don't deserve it.

He hecho cosas malas, he herido a mis amigos, me duele mucho y siento vergüenza, estoy loco y soy malvado, no puedo controlar las maldades que hago y he decidido no juntarme con ellos hasta curar mis problemas mentales, es un impulso de mrda, y sé que muchos dirán que no es excusa y es verdad, pienso curarme de esto lo antes posible, no quiero ser Malvado, me siento confundido, desorientado, me duele mi pasado, quiero redimirme, quiero redimirme , arreglar las cosas malas que he hecho, necesito hacer algo por el mundo para calmar mi consciencia, ells es. Mi peor castigadora, teng una amiga llamada Vanesa a la cual Heri muchas veces, soy asqueroso, siento odio por mi, me odio,no me soporto, no lo hago, odio, oio, deseo descansar

When you just can't cry anymore....

Goodbye cruel world

people who overthink alot... | | \/